Brought a laptop and hard-disk.
My Pocket was greatly hit by a tornado... So it had a super big hole right now... almost as deadly and deep as a BLACK HOLE!
Recently, I found myself to be really fortunate.
I had a bunch of friend who are willing to listen to my grumble, willing to console me when i need it. Even in times when I tried to hide my depression from them, they would tried to find out my feeling, understand me and so on.
Anyway,.. in short I am really lucky! haha..
Haizzz.... If I have something that I really hate..., it would be looking at my parent hand, even a glance of it really piss me off a great deal.
I am really angry at myself. If I had something to be proud of, it would be, diligent, my parent are real diligent when it come down to work though I sometime do think that they work so much that they forget something else that is important.
Their diligent was shown in their hand. As a result from working too hard, their hand looked terrible. Seriously terrible.
Whenever I looked at their hand especially my mum, I would be very angry at myself for not being able to provide them a good life but instead be a burden to them. Not only they have to take care of the family, they have to carry the burden of my studies as well.
However, in order to find a decent job, I believe that I should study to further improve my knowledge, being able to live by myself or study oversea will help me to grow, not only in term of brain/knowledge but as a person as well. Every successful person had to be independent I guess... at least.
But, even though I had made my decision, the idea of being a burden to them had been weighting a great deal.
I can't balance out both of them... that's why I had been in serious depression and normal mode recently.
Even with a bank loan, given my capability, I can't earn back all the money for my studies before the interest start. Hence I needed to rely on my parent even though it will bring a great deal of stress to them as they will need to worked double hard when they are already working as hard as they can right now.
But I guess I dun really have a choice since EVEN (Emphasis) SIM rejected me, what could I do?
I would like to minimise the damage that could be done.
Nothing is more important to me than my family.
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ManichijessMainichi is a Japanese word which mean everyday. Jess is basically my name. Welcome to my daily life =D
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